One minute you have a beautiful bunch of green bananas and the next they’re ALL a bundle of mush.
How many times has this happened to you?
I never inquired, I never thought about it, I just thought, “This must be life as a banana” until I met a very helpful cashier at Trader Joe’s who eyed my duet of bananas and said, make sure you keep the ripe one away from the green one!
He said, “Yes. Not only should you (un)bunch them, but you should keep them away from each other because one will eventually ripe the other due to the ethylene gas that it leaves off.”
I believed him. Trader Joe’s always seems to have those people who know what they’re talking about, however being the sceptic that I am and before I isolated my bananas to opposite sides of the kitchen, I Googled it and sure enough, he was right.
I then thought to myself, “I’m a banana!”
To be honest, I thought I was going to be over this by now. I thought that after all this writing and talking, that I would be ready to date again or at least be OPEN TO THE IDEA of dating again.
Sure, I may the proud owner of http://www.iquitdating.com, but surely I was angry THEN and I must be less angry NOW, right?
Yet it seems the opposite has happened. I am now so accustomed to the image that I’ve created of this girl who isn’t dating anymore that as the days have gone by, I find myself becoming more and more “her” even though I wasn’t quite sure what would happen when I started this.
Would I really quit?
Would I really kill any remaining interest I MIGHT have in dating if I truly live and breathe the words I’ve written.
Am I really going live like a banana – in my own world and not open to dating because I don’t want someone to rot my life away?
The answer is yes.
And that is what I’ve been doing.
I’ve been doing all the things that I said one must do. I would even go as far as saying that I’ve been so busy that I haven’t had time to write my feelings of woe here on this blog, because quite honestly they haven’t been around in awhile.
Part of me is proud and part of me isn’t, because humans are not meant to live like bananas.
But how do I explain the peace that I feel now more than ever?