I love you.
I love celebrating your life and all it has become.
The boyfriends, the engagements, the weddings and the babies – all those big moments in your life where you shared photos of first dances, honeymoons, baby’s first bath, and baby’s first nap.
I celebrated you and your life moments via likes, cheers and comments, while sharing via #____baby and #____wedding.
But somewhere a long the line I had my own life moments.
Maybe not babies and weddings, but nights out with friends, amazing work accomplishments and endless photos of Los Angeles’ sunsets that always dance outside my window.
Beautiful things to me as sonograms and engagement photos are to you.
And while they aren’t conventional life moments like you have had, they are moments that have defined me and who I am. They are moments worth celebrating because they are non-conventionally “me”.
Yet in the age of social media, I’ve found that these types of lives, the lives like mine, don’t seem to work as well in my circle of friends where the wild and free are whispered and wondered about.
Is she happy? (Yes) Is she alone? (No) What does she do? (A lot actually!)
Maybe it’s my circle….Maybe it’s me…..but I knew I had to make a change when I logged on recently and immediately asked myself, what am I doing here? What is all this stuff and who are these people?
Then the thought occurred to me that instead of “dancing like no one is watching,” I wanted to live like no one was watching. I no longer wanted to feel like I was on the stage while others waited for my next trick, my next LIFE EVENT worthy of a comment or like. I wanted to remove myself from the wonder and questions from casual acquaintances. I wanted to be free without the social pressures disguised as “You should(s)” and “Why don’t you(s), because that is what THEY are doing now.
I wanted to live my life like no one is watching…because NO ONE IS!